Just to be with You
When you start a Biblical Core Course (or any secondary school), it’s easy to put a lot of expectations on God and on yourself.
You might ask yourself…
What am I going to learn?
How am I going to apply it and use God’s truth in my everyday life?
What is God going to speak to me?
What is God going to teach me about himself this week?
Am I going to have more confidence to share the gospel?
In an intensive course like BCC or SBS, sometimes the light bulbs aren’t going to turn on all at once. There isn’t always going to be an overwhelming sense that when you look at the word, it suddenly turns into a harvest with endless fruit to gather.
Sometimes it feels like you’re trying to strike a match that won’t light. Sometimes the spiritual high you’ve been expectantly waiting for doesn’t come in that moment.
And yet, it’s no reason to be discouraged or to fall into the trap of striving because we weren’t meant to live on a spiritual mountaintop at all times, like Oswald Chambers says:
“We are not built for the mountains and the dawns and aesthetic affinities, those are for moments of inspiration, that is all. We are built for the valley, for the ordinary stuff we are in, and that is where we have to prove our mettle.” He continues, “We are apt to think that everything that happens is to be turned into useful teaching, it is to be turned into something better than teaching, into character. The mount is not meant to teach us anything, it is meant to make us something.”
Reading the Bible can feel ordinary (maybe even a little mundane), but I think that’s ok. I think God is just grateful to spend time with you. I think he is grateful that you would set aside a few minutes, hours or months to learn more about him. Studying and meditating on God’s word makes us more of the people he made us to be. People with softened hearts who are patient, joyful, dedicated, disciplined, deeply curious and deeply rooted. When we study and meditate on God’s word day and night, he isn’t just teaching us what it looks like to be a disciple, he is making us disciples through repetitive practices.
The mundane of the valley isn’t the worst place to be; it’s where we are being transformed. While being on a mountaintop is inspirational, this fact is encouraging as well. Whether you’re looking up at the mountain or down on the valley, as long as Jesus is going with you, the view has beauty to behold either way.
We may not always be able to hear from God, but we are always able to be in his presence. I’m learning how to just be with Jesus during the BCC, and not force anything out of him when studying the Bible feels mundane.
Sometimes you don’t need to be talking, but you just need someone to be with you.